Finally, we came back from Uganda to our home country. I personally came back with a very relaxed mind. I do have plans to work again at that point in time. Nursing is my flesh and blood. I do miss my job so much and envied my friends who are working in the UAE and KSA. Made up my mind that if there is no ‘missed period’ I will pack my bag and leave to work outside Malaysia by end on 2008. I would say that I was happy and stress-free. I was almost ready to go to Melorita to sign up under them.
When you are stress-free you are likely to have a balanced hormonal activity thus providing a good well being emotionally, physically and biologically. I had my first ‘missed period’ in mid August. I was late for more than a week and I told no one about it. I felt something was not ‘right’ as my body temperature was increased every morning. I had this terrible calf pain and I was easily tired. I don’t really have a terrible ‘morning sickness’ so I really thought it was nothing. Did the home pregnancy test one morning and Alhamdulillah the result was positive. The first person to know about the result was my brother. He was home with me alone at that time. He was happy for me. Yasmirr was really glad when I deliver him the great news. I can hear him ‘smiling’ over the phone as he was out that morning to run some errands. He was the happiest person from that day onwards.
The 1st antenatal checkup was done in SDMC (my old workplace).( A friend suggested a wonderful lady Obstetrics and Gynecologist specialist whom I later found out that she had actually conducted my mom’s delivery of my youngest sister 13 years ago.) For the first time I saw this tiny lump that has had already both lower and upper limbs on the ultrasound. It will keep on growing and growing inside me. I call it The Stranger. It was a speechless moment for both of us when we saw it. So… so… so… precious tiny creature but it was immense enough to be called a ‘our symbol of love and affection’. There was no heartbeat yet but I was sure there will be soon…
